the time is now

So many things have changed in the past four months. And despite my initial feelings on the situations, I'm realizing they were ALL blessings in disguise. I'm learning more and more about myself and finding out who deserves to be in my life vs who doesn't. It's really hard to find GENUINE people in this world and thankfully those who weren't genuine are no longer apart of me. My main focuses now are my baby girl and school. :)

"Gone and I ain't lookin' back
I knew they gon' feel it like they tank on E
I promise baby, you can bet the bank on me
Cause ain't nobody tell me why there ain't gonna be no more
Thinking I'ma fall? Don't be so sure"

Halloween is a Hoot!

 I believe we've chosen Leila's Halloween costume :) I had my eye on this same one last year but she was so tiny and they didn't have a 0-3 month size.

 Isn't it adorable? I have a major things for owls! I might just dress up as an owl myself ;) haha I cant wait to buy it! :D

3 simple steps

On August 31st, my little bundle of joy took her very first unassisted steps. I stood her about a two feet away from me, let her gain her balance, let go and watched the magic happen. :') She stood for a couple seconds then put her left foot in front of her, then the right, then the left again with this big ol toothy grin! As she fell into my arms we both laughed and squealed. I live for moments like that! I am SO proud of my little cub<3 I'm very blessed to be able to enjoy all these milestones with her. I love you my little wiggly worm! :')

L O V E

Relief

Leila's party is over and I can finally breathe. We had a few issues but it all turned out good in the end. It POURED on the only day I needed it to be clear. Very frustrating. I didn't even get to take pictures because I was running around like a mad woman. :( Things that DID go according to plan, Leila kept her headband on all night! She looked adorable. The cake was not only beautiful but delicious! Thanks again Bernice. ;) Leila got A LOT of clothes. Thanks to all her wonderful family and friends! Since she's so tiny she'll be able to wear this stuff for a good while! It was our very first party and a learning experience of what to do and not to do next time LOL. Hopefully at her next big birthday bash I'll be of age to sit down and have a drink to relax because boy was I stressing! Now to enjoy the end of summer and beginning of fall with my little 1 year old<3

With her Auntie Steph<3

Her beautiful Tinkerbell cake!

With her Nina<3

With her Gammy<3 (my gma her great gma)

We displayed all her birthday cards :)

My little big Bee<3

A Year Has Passed..

Today is my daughter's birthday! A day I have looked forward to for months!! On this day last year, I was only beginning my new life with her. And today, I'm continuing it. We've gotten past the "infant" stage,  although she will ALWAYS be my baby, & entered the wonderful chaotic toddler years<3 Dun dun duuuuuun!!! LOL. It's been a hard emotional year and we've gotten through all of it together. She's so much more than just my child, she's my strength, my drive, my hope, and my faith. Since she was born we've never been apart for more than 4 or 5 hrs. I dread the day I have to leave her for school or work. :( I still cannot believe I created this beautiful little thing :') Her dark curly hair, big brown eyes, little button nose, lips identical to mine, beautiful hands that love to smack me, round belly I love to kiss, big ol "badonk" which she inherited from her mommy AND daddy, chunky strong "soccer player" legs, and smelly feet that I love to nibble on are just a few things that I adore. :) Along with all these physical attributes comes a personality with a punch! (Literally she punches haha!) She's got attitude that drives me insane but makes me laugh at the same time. She's one bossy lil thang! With this attitude, comes a heart of gold. She loves her family and shows it by "kissing" us which is more like a make out session. LOL. She's an outdoorsy type of girl and loves to explore the trees, grass, & flowers. She's very talkative and asks "What's That!?" everywhere we go. She loves her animals and refers to all the dogs, cat, & sometimes even people as "Ginger" (one of our Pomeranian/Daschund mixes). She goes around saying "Hi, Ginger!" to everyone. She loves HER song, "Layla" by Eric Clapton; she dances to it every time she hears it. She's such a joy to have around and I seriously don't know how I existed without her. Today is OUR day to celebrate and with that said we're gonna take a bath, get dressed in our pretty dresses and enjoy<3

Waking up and Singing Happy Birthday :)

We're ready to start our day!

Reading the birthday card from Oma :)

Asking "What's that?!" as she points to the animals on the card.

Watching her morning cartoons :)

I just don't get it!

Somethings been bothering me a lot lately, if you KNOW someone is in a relationship WHY in the world would you pursue them? And if you KNOW that relationship consists of THREE people, the couple PLUS a child, again WHY in the world would you purse them??? Whether your a girl or guy, it's not cool. Have some respect not only for the spouse of your "interest" but for their child as well. Put yourself in THEIR shoes. In their CHILD'S shoes. If your "interest" goes along with your little attraction game and leaves his/her family for you, what makes you think that person won't do the SAME exact thing to you?? I don't know what it is with my generation that makes most of them think they can "have their cake and eat it too." Men: STOP ACTING LIKE PIGS and Women: STOP ACTING LIKE WHORES. Not only can you destroy a family/relationship with actions like that, but hello have you all ever heard of STD's??? Because I know for damn sure most cheaters/promiscuous people will falter on the use of condoms and birth control. Don't be stupid people. Have some morals. Would you want someone doing this to YOUR family? Your mother/father? Your sister/brother? Your daughter/son? Yourself even?? Think and assess the consequences before you act on selfish impulses. That is all! Good day :)

“It is better to suffer wrong than to do it, and happier to be sometimes cheated than not to trust.”
~Samuel Johnson


"All good is hard. All evil is easy. Dying, losing, cheating, and mediocrity is easy. Stay away from easy."
~ Scott Alexander


"When he’s late for dinner, I know he’s either having an affair or is lying dead in the street. I always hope it’s the street." - Jessica Tandy <---- LMAO at this quote!